This love that flows // Beneath my skin // Simmers into golden light // Roiling shadows // Rise to match its height.
If I’ve ever touched you- // With my tongue, // My arms, // My sweat- // I’ve hated you, too.
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Effortless Alchemy – On Semen Retention
Semen retention is a beautiful practice—one with the potential to enhance every area of a man’s life: material, spiritual, and, yes, sexual.
All spiritual traditions of consequence recognize this, though they may speak in symbols. From the Daoist Golden Age – where “all men lived in harmony with nature and transmuted their energy as naturally as you or I draw breath” – to the esoteric heart of the early church, silenced by those who claimed to inherit Christ.
Each point toward a human sexuality that is both far more and far less than what has saturated the modern zeitgeist.
This is not a manifesto. It is a trace of my evolution—a path I share for those who struggled as I once did to break old ways of being and become something more.
Continue readingHow to Love Yourself ↔ And Why You Should
The echos of my self-hatred lie etched in the faded scars that adorn my body like scrimshaw. We all have our stories and mine – while not fun to experience – was never special. And some need to see themselves in me, to listen.
I’ve been hearing the praises of self-love my entire life.
In my suffering, I couldn’t help but notice that its greatest missionaries in my life had it the least. In them, self-love often looked like narcissism and self-indulgence. No amount of fake smiles or filters could hide the hunger for external validation. Many were just as self-destructive as I was.
I remember telling a therapist, “I can’t love myself, I’ll turn out like them!”
We see ourselves reflected in others.
I wonder what I would see if I could go back in time?
Continue readingEffortless Alchemy – Law of Polarity
I have been using my understanding of the Principle of Polarity religiously since I discovered it.
The story is not important; suffice it to say I discovered the Principle in a time of supreme heartache and stress and I absolutely refused to process it like a human being.
I refuse to feel my feelings, and I resent the implication that I need to!
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I loathe the world // For how it raised you. // I love the world // For birthing me within // Your womb.
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How can THAT which cherishes // The Ten Thousand Things, Be // No respecter of persons?
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The Lost call for peace, // With tears born from ignorance, // While Cain breaks Abel, // Blinded by tearful experience. // Heaven and Earth churn on, // Rebirthing this bloody soup.
Continue readingThe Splinter in My Brother’s Eye
I’ve observed within my own experience that I hate in others that which I hate in myself.
This is not universally true.
I had never liked catching my reflection in the mirror and yet when I saw others with bodies calcified like mine I tended to view them with compassion.
It can sometimes be easier to be compassionate to those who lay with devils when you’ve been intimate with those devils, yourself.
And yet, invariably, when I look upon another with poison in my heart, I find upon further introspection that I am projecting my inadequacies onto them… and in condemning them I am condemning myself.
Continue readingAlchemy in Writing Love Poetry
The process of creation can be quite illuminating.
I wrote a love poem recently, and I felt something akin to vindication as I wrote it.
Such a martyr for love I am!
The rest of that initial discarded draft has been lost to the mists of my memory, but here the falsehood of my emotion is left to bleach beneath the sun.
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